Lately there seems to be a pattern developing in my life...a pattern for "Growth Opportunities". Situations for growth were probably always there and I just wasn't as aware of them as I am now. One thing I am finding hard about this is that I don't usually realize the situation is an opportunity until "way" after the fact. Then there are other times when I do and for one reason or another I just plain don't care. Take the last two days for example...
There have been some issues at work that have added to my already stressful job. Since they involved me I was told about them but was also told not to worry about it. Well, because of the nature of the issue I became instantly "irritated". Within about an hour I went from irritated to agitated to really mad. That makes for one long day. When I got up this morning I was feeling better about the whole thing but as soon as I got to work the bad attitude came back. I did pray about it a couple of times but more half hearted than not. Really I would have liked to have seen fire rain down upon a couple of people. I was sure that would make me feel better. But...God didn't cooperate with me on that. Instead, He sent one of my friends over with a CD for me to listen to. Admittedly, it helped some.
The whole purpose of writing this is to say...for quite some time there was no growth happening in this problem. But, when I got home today I read a devotional that said no matter what the problem we need to keep standing, keep believing, and...what stood out most to me...keep doing the right thing. When you do that you are opening yourself up to God's supernatural strength. When you do these things that's when you know you are growing in Him. This is the scripture used in that devotional;
"He gives power to the faint and weary, and to him who has no might He increases strength [causing it to multiply and making it to abound]"
(Isaiah 40:29, AMP)
I knew yesterday that I wasn't reacting in the right way or doing the right things. It was one of those times I really didn't want to. I have been failing at how I know God wants me to act and how I know I should handle these things when they happen. I should have prayed about it and went on as though nothing had ever happened. That's a hard thing to do. When you know God is telling you to handle things in a different manner you need to pay attention and change. The best way to do that is to talk to God about it and ask for His help. When you realize you have been wrong ask for forgiveness and for Him to take care of the situation. Then get on with life and learn and grow through the problem.