Friday, June 14, 2013

A New Journey

Well....it's a sad and exciting time tonight.  Because of issues, that I couldn't seem to get fixed, this is the last post I will write on Chelle's Blog.  But because of that I have started a new blog, a new journey. And I have to tell you I am excited about it.  The LORD gave me a new URL (address), some new scriptures to go with it, and a new blog name.  I hope you all will join me over at my new place....check it out....and maybe even give me a follow.  I will be looking forward to hearing from each of you there.

Here is the link....hopefully you can just click on it. But who knows....like I said there is some issues going on!  If not just type it in.


Thank you all for all of your support and comments while I blooged here.

Blessings....Chelle


Sunday, June 9, 2013

The Lord Merely Spoke

Psalm 33:6-9

6 The Lord merely spoke,
    and the heavens were created.
He breathed the word,
    and all the stars were born.
7 He assigned the sea its boundaries
    and locked the oceans in vast reservoirs.
8 Let the whole world fear the Lord,
    and let everyone stand in awe of him.
9 For when he spoke, the world began!
    It appeared at his command.

For a couple of weeks now I haven't been able to wrap my head around any scripture.  Reading the Bible has seemed kind of pointless to me.  It seems that I go through theses stages a lot recently.  I don't like it but it's a fact.  

Bad days....bad times....read the Word....get closer to God.  Get closer to God....still have bad days and times....everything is better because you know God is in control.  This is what I should do.  So tonight I opened my Bible and read this passage of scripture.  Somehow it helps.  If God can merely speak the whole world into existence....then He can take care of all that troubles us.  

Just a good night thought before going to bed....


until we see Jesus....face to face




Sunday, May 26, 2013

The Life You Got

I'm honored to be guest posting today over at Encourage 24/7.  For days now I've been trying to come up with something encouraging to write but it just hasn't happened.  So tonight I'm sitting at my desk and praying that the Lord will give me something to say.  I've started a few times and deleted them all.  I've flipped through scriptures....and nothing has hit me.  Until....

Psalm 107:2

Has the Lord redeemed you? Then speak out!
    Tell others he has redeemed you from your enemies.


This verse is for all of us.  As Christians we have all been redeemed and we all have a story to tell.  We need to tell our stories to all that will listen.  All of us are walking....talking....miracles!  You don't have to be a speaker....a writer....a singer....or anything else, other than just you, to tell your story.  

Before I gave my heart to the Lord I did many many things I'm not proud of.  For a long time I regretted that life.  Yes....I knew God had forgiven me but it was so very hard to forgive myself for those things.  Then one day I started realizing that until I forgave myself I wasn't going to really have the life that the Lord wanted me to have.  So....I went back (physically) to a few of the places where life went all wrong....talked to the Lord about them and forgave myself.  For the places I couldn't go back to....I just talked to the Lord about them and forgave myself.  You see....you can never truly be free until you accept your past life and move on into your new life with the Lord.  I heard a line on a movie tonight that fits this well....

The miracle ain't the life you missed....it's the life you got!

Sometimes we look back and think about all that we missed because we didn't always do the right things. But, what I have found is how much more the life I have now really means to me.  Since I gave my life to Jesus it's so much fuller and brighter than anything I ever knew before.  The life I have now is the life the Lord had planned for me all along!  The people that mean so much to me now....I may have never known had my life been different. This life I've got now is my miracle!  I have had a crazy, full life and I wouldn't trade it for anything else because now I can fully appreciate all that the Lord has done for and given me.  

When Jesus died on Calvary He set me free from all of my sin and made a way for me to be free!  Jesus did that for all of us.  So if you have been redeemed....Speak out!  Tell the people around you....or the world if your a blogger....your story.   People need Jesus and you just might be the one with the right life story that will show them the way.


until we see Jesus....face to face



 

Sunday, May 19, 2013

He Brought Me Out

This weekend while reading some scripture I came across Psalm 40.  I read verse 1-3 and thought how familiar they sounded to me.  Not just that I had read them many times before....no....there was something more....

Psalm 40:1-3

I waited patiently for the Lord;
And He inclined to me,
And heard my cry.
2 He also brought me up out of a horrible pit,
Out of the miry clay,
And set my feet upon a rock,
And established my steps.
3 He has put a new song in my mouth—
Praise to our God;
Many will see it and fear,
And will trust in the Lord.


It is the words of the chorus to an old hymn called....He Brought Me Out written by Henry L. Gilmour, 1898.  Here is the chorus....

He brought me out of the miry clay,
He set my feet on the rock to stay; 
He puts a song in my soul today,
A song of praise, hallelujah!

This was a song from my childhod that was stored somewhere in the recesses of my mind....or was it really stored in my soul?  Anyway, I find it so amazing how the Lord brings things back to our remembrance as we need them....even when we don't know we need them....

First I read the verses, then the song was playing in my mind, and I immediately thought about my life and how the Lord has brought me out. 

The definition of the word mire; used as a noun it means a marsh or a bog. As a verb it means to involve or entangle.  That is what satan does to us.  He gets us so heavily and deeply involved in our sin that before we know what's happening we are entangled as if we are a fly caught in a spiders web.  Then we find ourselves sinking....sinking....sinking....until we are so much in a bog that we think we could never get out.  That is just a mind game that the devil uses on us to keep us in our sin.  The cool thing is....

When the Lord gets a hold of us He pulls us up out of that miry clay and does just what the scripture and the song says.  He sets our feet upon the rock (solid ground) and helps us to stand.  He has done that for me.  He steadies me....calms me....holds me....firmly places me in His care!  Then He started replacing all of the old songs I had carried in my soul for so long....with His songs....and fills my heart with praise!   

There are many times when I start letting the evil one take me down a dark path that I try hard to stay away from.  That's when I need to reach up and grab His hand before the bog starts sucking me in.  It's at those times I need to be reminded of where the Lord has brought me from....and where I am today.  The Lord did that for me yesterday when He led me to these verses.  

As the title of the song says;

He Brought Me Out....and He will bring you out too.  


Until we see Jesus....face to face





 

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Steadfast As An Olive Tree

Right now....though I should be in bed....I find myself drawn to my computer.  For a few days now I have had many thoughts of things I wanted to share but when I tried my mind would just go blank....then I would sleep.  So tonight I really don't know where I'm going with this.

Lately when I open my Bible I always go to the Psalms.  Somehow they just seem to give me comfort....rest....peace.

Psalm 52:8-9



8 But I am like an olive tree, thriving in the house of God.
    I will always trust in God’s unfailing love.
9 I will praise you forever, O God,
    for what you have done.
I will trust in your good name
    in the presence of your faithful people.

I found these two verses yesterday and for some reason can't seem to get away from them. I looked up a little about olive trees and found that....An olive tree is known for its tenacity and that it can grow and thrive in just about any soil. 

I looked up the word to be sure of it's meaning and found that  another word for tenacity is steadfastness.  So, if you remain steadfast as an olive tree....or unshakeable in your faith...and trust that God loves you and cares for you....you are going to thrive in your walk with Him.  We just have to do as David did and commit our life to the Lord no matter what circumstance we find ourselves in. 

As I have said before my quest is to have unshakeable faith.  So I think the reason I found this passage  was to show me that I needed to be like an olive tree....tenacious and thriving where ever I am.  With unshakeable tenacious faith growth should come....as long as I'm relying on...and trusting in...the Lord.


until we see Jesus....face to face 



Linking up with Tracy



Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Sleepless Nights

Do you ever have sleepless uncomfortable nights?  During one of my recent long nights I opened my Bible and read Psalm 63.  The verses that stuck out to me were 6-8.

6 I lie awake thinking of you,
    meditating on you through the night.
7 Because you are my helper,
    I sing for joy in the shadow of your wings.
8 I cling to you;
    your strong right hand holds me securely.

First, I have to tell you that I was not lying awake thinking of God as the scripture says.  I was praying but probably not in the way this passage is saying....probably more a prayer of desperation.    But, as the night turned to morning my thoughts did go the way of easy more meditative thoughts.  I started realizing that if I kept the Lord in the forefront of my thoughts that rest came easier.  I may not have slept but I did eventually rest.  

When we are going through something that just seems to have no end what is it we should do?  My study Bible says to make it a point to count examples of God's faithfulness.

You know His mercy is so great and really it knows no end.  Our Lord is always holding out His hand to us and if we take it we will find many wonderful things that He has for us.  Some of them are faithfulness....mercy....hope....rest....and His mighty strength to hold us up and get us to the other side of our problem.

Then I read verse 1 again.

1 O God, you are my God;
    I earnestly search for you.
My soul thirsts for you;
    my whole body longs for you
in this parched and weary land
    where there is no water.

Life can spiral out of control for many reasons.  When it does I find that I start feeling empty.  I long for something to change how I'm feeling.  In the past I have used many different things to fix this feeling.  None of them worked.  When our whole body....our entire being....is suffering or lacking something....only the Lord can help us.  He can give us rest and comfort when nothing or no one else can.  

Another passage that comes to mind is this....

Psalm 42:1

As the deer longs for streams of water,
    so I long for you, O God.

Everything that has life needs water.  The water that we need most is the Living Water....JESUS.  In the midst of your trial reach out for that living water.  If you reach up for His hand you will find it....even in the night!


Linking up with Tracy at Winsome Wednesday.

 

 

Saturday, May 4, 2013

He Gives Amazing Grace

Long days...longer nights...so much alone time.  How do you fill it up?

Sitting here this morning I realize that the only way to truly fill it up is with God.  We choose how we fill our lives and He chooses how to fill us up.  He will fill us up with all good things when we make the correct first choice.  That choice can only be one thing...the Lord.  When we choose Him, He fills us with things that we could only hope to find before...

Many times we have to walk through things of this life to truly find the exceptional good things that He has for us...  

We go about our everyday lives taking much for granted.  Everything is good...great even...we are reasonably healthy...life is comfortable.  Then life happens...different for all.  Within a family circle...be it blood family or friend family...we experience many different things.  Things that bind us tightly if we let them.  Good things...great things....extravagant things.  Then on the flip side...things of sickness...tragedies...and sometimes loss...

Through whatever our individual life holds...if we choose...He is there.  With us every step of the way.  Giving us exactly what we need...exactly when we need it.  All of our walks are different.  We don't all go through exactly the same things at exactly the same time...but we all go through something.  I have found through watching others and from my own experience...the only way to get through is God...

Truthfully...you can make it through without Him...but it's so much harder.  You really have to learn to give to the Lord whatever it is you are going through.  Compared to what many peoples lives are like...my trials are small but still a learning experience for me...

This past week the Lord has allowed me to spend some quality alone time with Him.  There have been moments when I wasn't happy with it at all...and other moments that were good...God good.  As long as He gives me those Amazing Grace filled times with Him...I can go through the rough times with Him...

In the midst of whatever your battle is today...share it with the Lord.  He can give you whatever you need to get you through your battle...take you to the other side of it...and help you to stand when you get there. When you are weak He will give you strength...

2 Corinthians 12:9-10


9 But He said to me, My grace (My favor and loving-kindness and mercy) is enough for you [sufficient against any danger and enables you to bear the trouble manfully]; for My strength and power are made perfect (fulfilled and completed) and show themselves most effective in [your] weakness. Therefore, I will all the more gladly glory in my weaknesses and infirmities, that the strength and power of Christ (the Messiah) may rest (yes, may pitch a tent over and dwell) upon me!

10 So for the sake of Christ, I am well pleased and take pleasure in infirmities, insults, hardships, persecutions, perplexities and distresses; for when I am weak [in human strength], then am I [truly] strong (able, powerful in divine strength).


till we see Jesus...face to face







 

Thursday, May 2, 2013

It Only Takes A Millisecond

Faith only takes a millisecond to be expressed.

Isn't that a good statement?  God has been working on my faith level recently so when I saw that it kind of jumped out at me. 

Today I had a few moments...couple of hours really!...of feeling sorry for myself.  After a bit of an "oh poor me" attitude, I realized that I hadn't been doing the same things today as I had been doing in the previous days this week.  I had not listened to one bit of music or read even one scripture.  So I turned on the music.  Whisper Jesus came on...beautiful song! Here's the first verse and chorus:

There's a name I love to whisper
anytime of day or night
And though the peace
that accompanies is mentioned
No tongue can tell
no pen can write


Whisper Jesus
I love you Jesus
Heavens peace will flood your soul
Whisper Jesus
I love you Jesus
Heavens peace will flood your soul

I started thinking about my day...my attitude...and what just a little bit of worship did for me.  I don't know how it is for you but for me it all ties in to faith.  Finally, I was understanding that if I would just reach out in faith, and believe, then all I had to do was just whisper His name...Jesus...it was all going to be okay.  They were saying that many times you can't express in prayer what you need or how you feel.  But...you can just whisper His name...Jesus...Jesus...Jesus...and that's all it takes.  How true that was.  I found that Jesus was there with me...holding me...comforting me.  Isn't that really all we need at times?  Just to know He's with us?  Just to know we're not alone?  To feel His peace and comfort drop over us like a heavenly blanket...that's all I really needed.  One of the best things about all of this was...

It really did only take a millisecond to get there.  The very second you start to whisper Jesus...He steps in.  It doesn't matter that nothing has changed in your situation.  The unsettled, anxious feelings start to leave with just the whisper of His name...Jesus.

James 1:2-4

2 Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. 3 For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. 4 So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Thank You

Right now my blog isn't updating on any blogrolls. I don't know why and have not been able to check into it as of yet. So I am hoping that all of you that have been praying for me get this.

I just want to say thank you all so much for all of the prayers. I know that because of you praying my surgery went well. I am recovering now and would still appreciate your prayers. Some days are good and others are pretty painful.

Many bloggers I know, and many I do not know, have been praying. Those of you that know me well, thank you. Those of you that Jan sent a call out to in the FOCB community and don't know me, thank you. Jan from FOCB sent me responses from many of you and I plan to eventually visit all of your blogs.

God Bless you all
Chelle

For Our Good and HIS Glory

Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. 

The questions I pose for myself today are these...

Do I really believe in God's promises?  Do I really believe that even though things seem to be worse the last couple of days that God is in control and He will work it all out?  That In the end...everything will be okay? 

What I read is this...

I...we...have to have enduring faith.  If I don't then what is the point in anything I believe?  Faith and hope go hand in hand.  We have a great hope that all things in our life are going to work out...for our good and His glory.  That's a phrase Marge says to me all the time and I am still learning.  Our hope reveals our faith in Him.  Having courage and hope shows that we have faith that the Lord is working out everything for us.  Yes, my courage and hope wane at times.  In fact at some points this week they have lacked a lot!  But...because of my faith I was able to get up with renewed hope this morning!  Just knowing that today is a new day and God had it all planned out for me before I ever awoke...well that's exciting!  

Before I knew the Lord I believed that everything just happened.  I lived my life as much on the edge as I could because I thought that it really didn't matter anyway.  Kind of like what that old song says...what will be will be, the futures not ours to see, que sera, sera.  Just so you know...I still don't believe that I'm in control of my future but doing things like driving at high rates of speed while under the influence of  "whatever" is a risk you don't need to take!  I do believe that God has a much better ending in store for me than those actions would bring on.  I now have hope...and assurance...that I am part of God's family and no matter what...it will all turn out for my best!  

Something else I know is this...

Without faith we would be like a boat on a stormy sea.  Tossed and turned about...never knowing what direction we were going in.  Think about the mess you would be in if you didn't have faith. Faith is what holds me...us...together. When we are on that stormy sea faith is what keeps us going.  Faith is like a lifeline to the Lord.  Without faith prayer is meaningless.  Why pray if you don't have faith that God is listening?  But when you do have faith that He is...even when you don't see immediate results...you know that you know that He is listening and is working it all out for you...

For your good and His glory! 


till we see Jesus...face to face 



Linking up with Tracy today





Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Strengthening Faith

For a while now I have known that to become "Deeply Rooted and Unshakeable" you have to go through things.  How else can your faith be strengthened?  So...when life happens I can let those things effect me in one of two ways.  Feel sorry for myself and become unsettled and tossed about or...dig deeper into the Lord so my faith can grow.

When I found out I was going to have back surgery I was a little less than thrilled but I knew it was what needed to be done.  There were many thoughts that passed through my mind about the whole process but the one that quickly took the forefront was...this is an opportunity to spend more time with the Lord.  My intention was to spend time reading His Word and maybe a book or two that I have.  So far that's not how it's been going.  I have read a few verses but mostly it's been lots of praise and worship music and just talking with Him...and that has been good!  Being able to focus on reading hasn't really happened for me but on Saturday I really felt I needed to read some scripture.  So I simply said...Jesus please give me a scripture to read that will help me right now...1 Peter came to mind immediately.  So I got my bible and begin to read.  When I read verses 6 - 7 I knew that's what He wanted me to see...

1 Peter 1:6-7

6 So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. 7 These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.

Saturday just seemed to be a day that the Lord was using to let me know that my quest for "Deeply Rooted and Unshakeable" faith  was the road I need to be on.  I just happened to receive a surprise in the mail that same day...one of my favorite poems.  A wall hanging with the poem by Bonnie Mohr...

Our faith must be Deeply Rooted and Unshakeable.
I will rely on Your unfailing Love.  Your Roots hold me to Your steadfast Foundation, strengthening and overflowing me with thankfulness.  I will stand firm in Your Word and truth for it reaches to the Heavens. 

The Lord never ceases to amaze me how He uses different ways to speak to us.  Through His Word...special friends...music...and the life situations that we find ourselves in.  Each day since this journey started He has spoken to me in many ways.  As He leads...I will share.


till we see JESUS...face to face













Monday, April 29, 2013

Victory

dark flows in
light flows out
where do you go
just flail about
seemingly vague
clouds settle in
raindrops are falling
on your world again
filled with despair
hopeless abounds
pain in the path
fear wins out
thinking is muddled
sickness abounds
turmoil within
fogginess without
what do you do
when all settles in
at every turn
you just can't win
run to the cross
fall on your knees
face to the ground
tears flowing free
shouts you send up
Gods breath you feel
warmth spreading through
soul hole is filled
stand to your feet
shout it out loud
go tell the world
Christ you will see





 


Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Let Jesus Be What You Need

Jesus....Jesus....Jesus....there's just something about that name!  Wherever you are tonight....whatever you are doing...if things just don't seem right for you....just call on that name....Jesus!  He won't let you down.  He will hold you up and take care of you.  He will calm your fears and help you to keep your sense of humor regardless of what's going on. He will place within you peace and hope when you least expect it.  He will be your rock...let Him be!

Psalm 94:19
When doubts filled my mind,
    your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer.




Monday, April 22, 2013

He's Got You Covered

2 Chronicles 20:15b
This is what the Lord says: Do not be afraid! Don’t be discouraged by this mighty army, for the battle is not yours, but God’s.

What are you afraid of today?  What battle are you fighting tonight that's got you all wrapped up?  
Whatever it is you know that God already has it all under control. 

He. Has. Got. You. Covered!

2 Chronicles 20:12
O our God, won’t you stop them? We are powerless against this mighty army that is about to attack us. We do not know what to do, but we are looking to you for help.”

Are you feeling powerless against what you are going through? Well so did the King and his armies. they didn't know what to do in their own power so they called on the One who could help them. And they worshipped!

2 Chronicles 20:18-22

18 Then King Jehoshaphat bowed low with his face to the ground. And all the people of Judah and Jerusalem did the same, worshiping the Lord. 19 Then the Levites from the clans of Kohath and Korah stood to praise the Lord, the God of Israel, with a very loud shout.
20 Early the next morning the army of Judah went out into the wilderness of Tekoa. On the way Jehoshaphat stopped and said, “Listen to me, all you people of Judah and Jerusalem! Believe in the Lord your God, and you will be able to stand firm. Believe in his prophets, and you will succeed.”
21 After consulting the people, the king appointed singers to walk ahead of the army, singing to the Lord and praising him for his holy splendor. This is what they sang:
“Give thanks to the Lord;
    his faithful love endures forever!”
22 At the very moment they began to sing and give praise, the Lord caused the armies of Ammon, Moab, and Mount Seir to start fighting among themselves.

Notice what verse 22 says...At the very moment they begin to sing and give praise...WOW! At that moment the LORD came through! He caused things to happen! They won their battle!!

I'm thinking that if we would do that we just might be surprised at what the LORD will do for us! We all fight battles and we all want to defeat our enemy...whom ever or what ever it is. So lets begin to praise and worship the Lord and see what happens. 

If we do this we just may see how good He really is!

Oh taste and see that the LORD is good. 




 

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Faith Versus Fear

I just wanted to share these two days off of my calendar with you. It's called; Gods Heart For You...by Holley Gerth. I had not looked at my calendar for about ten days but the day I went to the surgeon I decided to see what it had to say. I went on the 18th but I read the 17th and 18th.

17th

Hey, you.
Yep, you.
The one feeling a little weary.
Carrying that load.
Fighting this battle.
You're beautiful, you know that?
It's true.
And you can do this with Him.
With His power.

18th

You feel like your strength is small.
But it's not.
It's BIG.
World-changing big.
Life-altering big.
Make-it-over-that-mountain big.
BIG enough for you to do what you need to do.
Because your strength is as big as the GOD in you.

Aren't they good!!! I like all of what it says but especially this part...Because your strength is as big as the GOD in you. That is so true. I was just thinking about unshakeable faith the last couple of days. How I so want to just get there!! In my head...my heart I guess. Just to have faith no matter what. A faith so big that no matter what...I'm okay with it. That I know that God is in control of every situation and I can just roll with whatever happens...at any given time...and not doubt and be fearful or whatever other emotion I have. I don't like how I'm good one minute with how things are going to be and then the next I'm feeling the wave of...I don't want to do this fear.
 

So...back to that last line of the 18th...

I ask myself...How big is the GOD in me? Well, I think the answer is...as Big as I will let Him be. If I believe He is in control and I have nothing to fear...then I'll be okay. It's when I start listening to the voice in my ear...instead of in my heart...that I get all messed up. Satan is the one filling my head with the fear thoughts. I know this but I still listen. God wants to be the One I listen to. The voice that is bigger than any other voice! I have always thought that the voice of God is probably a Big, Deep Voice...rather booming! That is if you were to hear it audibly. But that's just my thought.

To wrap this all up I will just say this...

At times we all fight battles and feel weary...worn out and down in fact! And sometimes...our strength is pretty much gone. But I know...I Know!!!...that God is still there. Fighting with us...giving us the strength we need, just when we need it. HE is...everything and all we need! And in a few days when I need to really have that faith to believe...beyond any doubt...He will help me to have it! 



Saturday, April 13, 2013

Redirecting

As you can tell by reading my last couple of posts...God has been trying to get my attention.  I've noticed...I just haven't been responding.  Mainly because I haven't known the answers to the questions that keep forming in my mind.  At times I don't even know the questions...but I do know who brings on the confusion...

More and more it seems that I have been slipping away.  Away from what?...everything that holds me together.  Why?...I keep asking myself.  The answer...I don't have one.  Then the next question...how long has this been going on?  Days...weeks...months even?!  All I can say is...for a while now.  It hasn't been a complete all the time thing...but it has been happening more and more.  I know it...heart and soul.

When I first started noticing the difference I went back and read some of the things written in the past.  Everything I picked to read was written with feeling...my feeling.  They were truth...honesty...transparent and yes!...some even were gut wrenching to me.  Where did I go?  Where did it go?  That feeling...that heart that I once had for everything that was right and good...for Him.  How have I let it get lost...myself get lost...amongst everything else that goes on in life?  Really, the only answer that I can come up with is just life. That I have let life...all the ups and downs...twists and turns...disappointments...my own failure...sidetrack me.

So now the next question.  Where do I go from here?  Yes...there is the obvious answer.  Back to doing what I did in the beginning...reading...studying...learning.  And yet...not just those things.  I need to open my heart...my mind...my spiritual ears...and do and hear what He wants me to do...completely.  Give Him freely, the part of me that I hold back...what ever that may be.  At this point I don't really know what that is...but I want too.  I need to not let the disappointments sideline me.

Why am I sharing this with all of you?  That's a good question.  One that I have asked myself time and time again since starting this blog.  The answer?  For one reason and one reason only.  Because God...God wants me to be transparent.  Maybe because I have always hidden myself...my life...from everyone. At least I did before becoming a Christian.  I always lived in the shadows...the darker the better...shadows and walls...and I came to like it that way.  At times it's really hard to not still be like that!  But one thing I know now is this...to hide in the shadows and behind walls is darkness and promotes fear.  To live in the open is light and promotes life.  Gods way...in the light...is the right way...the best way.   

And now...how do I end this? 

I read a prayer tonight from Called Magazine that said this...

Father, if we're (I'm) on the wrong path, please redirect our (my) steps. ~ Don't allow us (me) to live our lives (my life) missing Your plan. 

In Jesus' name, Amen

To personalize it I added the words in parenthesis.

I believe I saw this prayer so that I would know that GOD is redirecting my steps today.  Not to get me back to where I once was, but to help me to become more.  More of who He wants me to be. 

I'm going to end this with the 23d Psalm because He is my Shepherd and the only One that I want to follow!

Psalm 23

The Lord the Shepherd

A psalm of David.

23 The Lord is my shepherd;
    I have everything I need.
2 He lets me rest in green pastures.
    He leads me to calm water.
3 He gives me new strength.
He leads me on paths that are right
    for the good of his name.
4 Even if I walk through a very dark valley,
    I will not be afraid,
because you are with me.
    Your rod and your shepherd’s staff comfort me.
5 You prepare a meal for me
    in front of my enemies.
You pour oil of blessing on my head;
    you fill my cup to overflowing.
6 Surely your goodness and love will be with me
    all my life,
and I will live in the house of the Lord forever.








LORD I Need YOU More

I need You more than ever before
more than anything else in my life
more than the sunshine or the rain
more than the dew upon the flower
more than the birds in early spring

I want You more than my biggest dream
more than my mind can conceive
more than my deepest longing
more than my highest hopes
more than my heart can fathom

I long to let Your love
consume my mind
comsume my heart
consume my soul
consume my whole life

To the core of my being
to the places I have never let You go
to be more to me than I think possible
to run wild within my heart
to depths I have never known

You are everything I need
the One who has given me grace
the One who has healed my mind
the One who has allowed me to feel
the One who has given me hope

You Lord have imparted Your peace to me
You Lord have given me life free and abundant
You Lord have opened my eyes so I could see
You Lord have opened my heart to receive love
You Lord have freely given me more than I could have imagined

Yet today Lord I need You more
more than ever before
more than my thoughts can conjure
more than my mouth can speak
more than my heart can feel

You are the same yesterday today and forever
yet I Lord am forever changing
yet I Lord am forever needing
yet I Lord am forever reaching
yet I Lord am forever growing

So today Lord I ask You
to hold me up once again
to give me strength once again
to let me feel Your love once again
to heal my body soul and mind once again

Because Lord

I will always need You more
more than my mind can conceive
more than my deepest longing
more than my highest hopes
more than my heart can fathom

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Contemplative...Reflective Thoughts

Some weeks...days...hours...moments...I think I'm just done...

Done with life...people...myself...sometimes even God...

But I know I'm not really...

At least not with God...and most people...not even with life...

At times...like this moment in time...I just think it...

This may come as quite a shock to those of you who read this blog all the time but I'll say it anyway...

I. Am. Not. Perfect. 

Those really are my thoughts sometimes...

There are times when I just don't handle life very well...

Things go wrong and each day you go to bed thinking that the next day will be better.  You will get up tomorrow and all will be good...or on the way to good.  But...you wake up and it's not better.  In fact...just the opposite...each day is worse...harder.  Life...it keeps going on in just the way God has planned...His perfect plan.  Which...by the way...isn't always our perfect plan!    

So while I've been home trying to get a handle on things...I got on Facebook.  What I probably should have been doing was talking to God...but since I wasn't...God decided to talk to me.  Through Facebook!  

Philippians 4:19

And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus. 

That's what someone had posted.  Right there where I had no choice but to see it...read it even!!
You think God had something to do with that?  My thought is yes...everything to do with it I'm sure!

So I can tell you this...

While taking time out of my contemplative...reflective thoughts...to write this...

Nothing has changed...

I'm still not perfect and sometimes I will still be done with it all...

Everything that was wrong when I started this post...

Is still wrong now...

Well...

One thing has changed...

I'm not done with God and never will be...

His perfect plan is what's right for me...

Even if I don't see it right now...

And...

His perfect plan for your life...

Really is right for you too...

Even when it's hard...

Remember this when you aren't sure...

It's what I will be reciting to myself...

He really will meet all of your needs...

Just like He says He will...









 









Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Have Faith...Believe

Do you ever find that sometimes you just have to throw up your hands and say...

"Okay God...I give up. What is it that you want me to do in this situation?"

Now, your situation is probably different than mine but the thing is...we all need answers. Maybe not even answers...but just help in making the right decision. It could be that you have been doing what you thought was the right thing but it hasn't helped. So...you continue to pray in faith knowing that God has it handled already, even though you haven't seen a change for the better. In fact, it continues to get worse. So what next? You take the next step and while doing that...continue to pray that God will just take care of it.

I received a gift a couple of days ago and this is what it says...

Faith is daring the soul to go beyond what the eyes can see.

That saying is great. It really makes me think about my faith...how much of it I really have. So many times I feel that my faith is so lacking! I know what to say...but do I really believe and not just say what I'm supposed to?  What people want to hear. Sometimes I question myself.

What I do know for sure is...God is a big God and He loves us. Regardless of what we are struggling with He is there with us. In the thick of it. It might seem like you're on your own in the battle at times. It might seem like nothing is changing. Things may even be getting worse. But just remember this...

God is bigger than any situation you find yourself in and He will see you through it. Just have faith and believe!

Hebrews 11:1 AMP

Now faith is the assurance (the confirmation, the title deed) of the things [we] hope for, being the proof of things [we] do not see and the conviction of their reality [faith perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses].



Until we see Jesus face to face.

 










Monday, April 1, 2013

Only Believe

Only believe 
Only believe 
All things are possible, only believe
Only believe
Only believe
All things are possible, only believe

Lord I believe 
Lord I believe
All things are possible, Lord I believe
Lord I believe
Lord I believe
All things are possible, Lord I believe

As I've told you before, the Lord uses music to get through to me many times and tonight was no different. He used this old chorus from my childhood that I hadn't heard in a long time. Amazingly...to me...hearing this chorus started bringing me out of the place I was letting myself go.

Now for me...and maybe for you too...this is what He wants us to do...

Only believe! For whatever we need...believe. That's all we need to do! Jesus will take care of the rest! 

Matthew 19:26 NLT


26 Jesus looked at them intently and said, “Humanly speaking, it is impossible. But with God everything is possible.”



Until we see JESUS face to face...