Today I went to my last  post-surgery eye appointment. It's official...the doc said that my eye  looks perfect! Now I can start exercising, lifting, doing whatever I  want...not that exercising is something I want to do but it is  definitely needed! I was thinking about all of this and realized that my  eye condition...and subsequent surgery...wasn't noticeable by anyone  but me. The doc went inside my eye and fixed the problem. The tear  wasn't visible and the scar from the surgery isn't either. Kind of like what Jesus did in my heart...
Before we become Christians we  have many tears, holes and scars in our hearts. Some of them are so big,  and go so deep, we think they can never be repaired. I like how Ann Voscamp says...soul holes. I'm pretty sure...even if you lived a good life before becoming a Christian...that  you have had soul holes. Sometimes we think that there is just no way  that all of the scars and holes will ever be healed. I thought that way  every now and again about my eye. And...if I'm truthful...have thought  that way about my heart and soul too! What I have found out though is  you do have some of the control on how fast you heal from both kinds of  surgery. For physical surgery you need to do what the doc says for as  long as he says. Do you want the surgery to work or not? The choice is yours. When God works on your heart you also have a choice.  Ask Him to heal your scars...your wounds...your hurts...your addictions.  Anything that is holding you back...give to Him. Totally open up your  life to Him in areas that you need healing. It's not always an easy  thing but if you are sincere and really want it...He will meet you where  you are and begin the healing process. From experience I can tell you  that He doesn't always heal you immediately. But, keep going back to Him  about it. When you are really ready for that area in your life to be  healed...and want it more than anything...He will start the process and  sometimes do it immediately! That's why I think that you have some  control over the healing of some things in your life. You have to be  ready and willing to really give whatever it is over too Him! Don't give  it up and then take it back. Play games as it was put to me...and  rightly so. Then it seems when you have been healed in one area, God is  ready to start work on something else in your life. So, sometimes...it  seems as if your life is a roller coaster. A subject for another  post...another day!
When you have been healed of something in your life God will give you opportunities to share about it at some point. For me the best thing has been the excitement it puts in my day to day life. A renewed sense of what God is doing in me. Since September 19th I have had more boldness to say what needs to be said, to a friend, about Jesus. She has always known I'm a Christian but in conversations I would sometimes be afraid to tell her exactly what she needed to do to change her life. I was always afraid of offending her or making her mad. The last two weeks I have just been plain and honest about what I tell her...and she is good with it. She just keeps coming back, most days, for more conversation.
God is so good. He is healing me, and making me whole...more everyday. What do you need Him to do for you today? Whatever it is just call out to Him. He wants to bind up those old wounds. Repair the tears and holes in your heart, soul and mind. Call a friend...e-mail a friend...get together with a friend...ask them to pray with you for your healing. The Word says this...
Matthew 18:19-20
19 “I also tell you this: If two of you agree here on earth concerning anything you ask, my Father in heaven will do it for you. 20 For where two or three gather together as my followers, I am there among them.”When things go south for me it's as if I get stuck. At some point I can't even hardly pray anymore. I know then I need to contact a friend I can trust and ask for prayer. If it's really bad...I'm really bad...I need to talk it out first and then pray together with them. God has never failed me yet. When I am ready...when you are ready...He is willing.
 
 
 



