Ever have life just totally knock you down? Well, lately it's been getting to me big time. It seems when things aren't going well in one part of my life...physically...spiritually...or mentally...that all the rest eventually start being affected. I don't like that I let that happen. When I give in to circumstances of life in one area it's a lot easier to let the negative into my life in all the other areas.
After some less than good moments tonight I looked down at my Bible...laying open on my desk where I had left it last night...and read this...
O God, You are my God;
I earnestly search for You.
My soul thirsts for You;
my whole body longs for You
in this parched and weary land
where there is no water.
This is saying to me how I am feeling. With everything I have...the entirety of me...my whole being is longing for Him. For God. When things are happening in my life and I'm not trusting God with them as I know I should, my spiritual life starts lacking. My soul starts to get dry and ache.
Sometimes I know that I need to really press in to God and yet I let things just hold me back. It's as if I have hit a wall and I can't go over it...under it...or around it. For me, I know I just have to push my way through it.
Reading further on...
I lie awake thinking of You,
meditating on you through the night.
Because You are my helper,
I sing for joy in the shadow of Your wings.
I cling to You;
Your strong right hand holds me securely.
Tonight I know that this is the answer. To think on and meditate on the Lord. He is my help in the time of trouble. In the time of anything in my life that throws me off balance. I have to cling...hold on to the Lord...through all the stuff in my life. I know this is true for me. I know this is right.
I really didn't start writing this tonight for anyone except myself...as an outlet for how I am feeling.
But as I end it I know that there are probably others reading this that are struggling with things in their life as well. If so...try doing what David did. Meditate on the good things of God. Let Him lift you out of the place you have let yourself get into.