Before I start this post I would like to thank Pam from http://2encourage.blogspot.com/ for featuring my blog this week. I'm not sure what God has for me to write so we will just have to find out together!
Today didn't start off as I had planned. This being Sunday I was expecting it to be something more than it was. You know how it is...
On Saturday you go to bed thinking you will get up in the morning, have some coffee, go to church and get all your inspiration...encouragement...just plain, good time feelings for the week! Doesn't always happen like that though. For me...
I woke up with a migraine, had to iron something to wear, and didn't have any coffee!! Should of known right away that something was off. I haven't had a migraine in sooooo long I can't even remember when the last time was. I get too church and all is good until worship started...it was really loud and I only knew one of the songs! Then when Pastor got up and started talking I knew almost immediately it was something I didn't want to hear. Not that it was a subject that I disagree with...just a subject that is hard for me for so many reasons. But...God is good. At the end of the service someone prayed with me and things were better. The funny thing about all of this is that we have two services...I stayed for the second as well! I kept thinking I should leave but God kept saying...you need to stay. In the past I have left when I knew I should stay and just had to turn around and go back, so...today I stayed! What he talked about still wasn't working for me but I know that someday it will.
Sometimes it's just hard to get yourself out of old mindsets...no matter how much you want too! I know that the Lord will help us to change our way of thinking if we will allow Him to. Sometimes, I think God wants us to hear things that make us uncomfortable just so He can get us thinking about it more. The more you think about something, the more curious you are about it...the more you want to find out about it. For me it raises as many questions as it does doubts when it's a subject I'm not real comfortable with.
I know that God only wants what is best for us. He wants us to have all the good things He has to give us. Is there something you know that God has for you to experience that maybe is just hard for you? Some gift that He wants to give you that you might think you just aren't good enough to deserve? If there is I can only tell you what I know God is telling me...
Get your bible and read it. Ask Him to help you deal with whatever the problem is so you can open your mind and your soul to what ever change He is trying to make in you.
Amplified Bible (AMP)
For this reason (seeing the greatness of this plan by which you are built together in Christ], I bow my knees before the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,
For Whom every family in heaven and on earth is named [that Father from Whom all fatherhood takes its title and derives its name].
May He grant you out of the rich treasury of His glory to be strengthened and reinforced with mighty power in the inner man by the [Holy] Spirit [Himself indwelling your innermost being and personality].
May Christ through your faith [actually] dwell (settle down, abide, make His permanent home) in your hearts! May you be rooted deep in love and founded securely on love,
That you may have the power and be strong to apprehend and grasp with all the saints [God's devoted people, the experience of that love] what is the breadth and length and height and depth [of it];
[That you may really come] to know [practically, through experience for yourselves] the love of Christ, which far surpasses mere knowledge [without experience]; that you may be filled [through all your being] unto all the fullness of God [may have the richest measure of the divine Presence, and become a body wholly filled and flooded with God Himself]!
Now to Him Who, by (in consequence of) the [action of His] power that is at work within us, is able to [carry out His purpose and] do superabundantly, far over and above all that we [dare] ask or think [infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts, hopes, or dreams]