This is another one of those posts where God just wants me to be transparent and real. It used to be so hard to write like this but I have learned it's much less painful to share myself than not. God always helps me and there is much healing in it when I do what He wants. So...here we go!
I was just over at Tracy's blog...My Daily Walk In His Grace. I went back and read one of her first posts and I have to tell you, the Lord really started speaking to me through it. God is using her blog to speak to many everyday. I pray that Tracy doesn't mind me telling where my inspiration came from tonight.
There is something that I feel God is leading me to do and I'm really quite unsure of myself. Yet, at the same time, very excited about it. But the worst thing is, I am feeling that it shouldn't be me because of things I continue to struggle with. Then I start thinking...how do I know for sure it's God talking to me and just not some random thoughts I'm having? Well, both of these things have an answer. Here they are...
As far as the things I still struggle with...
For the most part I have noticed that I only struggle with them when I am reading about and thinking about what I believe God is calling me to do. So, in my way of thinking...that is just the devil trying to knock me down and make me think I have not changed so I will stop before I begin! The devil is nothing but a liar and if he can discourage us in any way...so we don't go about doing what the Lord calls us to...he will. Earlier today when I was mulling this over God just really spoke to my spirit about this. "You just need to be prayed for so you can be delivered...once and for all...so these things won't continue to have a hold on you. That way the devil can't use them against you to get you down and discouraged."
As far as random thoughts go...
In my wildest dreams I would never think about doing this. In fact, in myself I would be content to just sit in a corner somewhere and pray that no one notices me. But, that's not what God has in mind when He saves us. He wants us to go out and win souls for Him. To help others in any way we can and show them the love that He has for them. We are to have His heart...have His thoughts...show His love...be His feet...be His hands...and be His voice. That's a lot for me to even think about. I always thought I was not worthy to do anything.Then one day I heard a preacher say...Don't say you aren't worthy. The Holy Spirit lives inside of you and because of Him and what Jesus did on the cross for you...you are more than worthy. It's not you that you rely on. It's Jesus working through you.
Well, there you have it. God wants all of us to grow in Him and do what He has prepared for us to do. It always involves people in some way. Whatever it is He has for each of us to do...we need to do it!
Seek his will in all you do,
and he will show you which path to take.
We can make our plans,
but the Lord determines our steps.
Commit your way to the LORD,
Trust also in Him,
And He shall bring it to pass.