Things were going well for me personally and spiritually. Then...Next Thing I Knew...it was like I went backwards in time. I started having a lot of the same fears I had before. People would be in the room with me, I'd turn around and they would be gone. Now...all that happened was, they had left the room. But, I immediately thought...Jesus came back and I didn't go. I was "Left Behind"!! (This used to happen to me all the time before I became a Christian.) Believe me, a few times I was close to the panic stage. Then I started having nightmares. This used to be a major problem of mine also. When they finally stopped occurring I was ecstatic. Unless you have been plagued by nightmares most of your life you have no idea what it's like. Basically, for a couple of weeks I have had a lot of fear come back into my life. To me fear is very debilitating. Besides that, you don't get a lot of sleep. So...what do you do when satan starts bringing the things of your past back? He tries to get you to blame God and go back to your old ways? I'll tell you what I did. Next Thing I Knew...
After a few days of all this happening I started to question whether or not I really was a Christian. That is exactly what satan wants you to do. It's kind of like when you are a prisoner of war. Your captors try to break you down so you will turn on your people and tell them what they want to know. That is what satan is doing. He's trying to get you to turn your back on God and go back to serving him. He just keeps at you with the thoughts and the nightmares and anything else he can throw your way. He might try to stir up trouble at your job, or even worse, at your home. The more trouble he can cause for you at one time, the better it is for him. The more likely you will trip up and go back to doing things you used to do. Sometimes if he can get you to slip up you might give up on yourself, and then God, altogether. That is his goal. Well...I didn't do that. I did have some bad days, lost some sleep. But...in the end...I didn't give up.
What I did do was...read my Bible, continue to pray and seek counsel from a Christian friend. I know that satan will still tempt me. He will try to discourage me and keep me from doing the work that God has given me to do. He will still try to torment me with things from my past. That's what he does. He is the father of lies and the prince of darkness. He rules over this world we live in. BUT...he "DOES NOT" rule over us as Christians. God is our Savior and King!! HE is ultimately in charge of everything that happens. All you have to do is trust HIM and HE will take care of you!!! Sometimes it's not easy, but if you stick with the LORD...Next Thing You Know...
You won't have to worry about being left behind. When the trumpet blows, or death takes you...You will be taken up to live with the Lord, forever, in Heaven. Satan won't be able to tempt or torment you anymore. There is no "Fear" in heaven. Jesus Loves You.
If you don't know Him today you need to do something to change that. Just pray a simple prayer to ask Him to come into your heart and forgive you. Then live for Him.
Psalm 9:10 (New Living Translation)
10 Those who know your name trust in you,
for you, O Lord, do not abandon those who search for you.
10 The name of the Lord is a strong fortress;
the godly run to him and are safe.
John 8:44 (New Living Translation)
44 For you are the children of your father the devil, and you love to do the evil things he does. He was a murderer from the beginning. He has always hated the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he lies, it is consistent with his character; for he is a liar and the father of lies.
But now thus says the Lord,
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name, you are mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
and the flame shall not consume you. —Isaiah 43:1-2
It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”
1 Corinthians 15:51-52 (New Living Translation)
51 But let me reveal to you a wonderful secret. We will not all die, but we will all be transformed! 52 It will happen in a moment, in the blink of an eye, when the last trumpet is blown. For when the trumpet sounds, those who have died will be raised to live forever. And we who are living will also be transformed.
Proverbs 19:20 (New Living Translation)
20 Get all the advice and instruction you can,
so you will be wise the rest of your life.