Do you ever have things from your past unexpectantly jump up and slap you in the face? You know...give you the wake up call that you know you need but you aren't really ready for. Well, that happened to me just yesterday. It was coming from a voice that I know all too well and he was putting thoughts in my head that I thought were gone for good. Those thoughts made me realize one thing...
don't ever get too comfortable and be slack in doing what you know is right! Even though I have been slippin' and slidin'...stumblin' and failin' a bit...God won't leave me alone. He still keeps talking and that's a good thing! He leads me to scriptures...like the ones I shared in the last post. Then there's the book I bought today...Wild Goose Chase by Mark Batterson. The sub title is...Reclaim the Adventure of Pursuing God. That so fits with what has been going on inside of me lately. Before I started the slippin' and stumblin' stuff I had been praying something like this...
help me to have a deeper relationship with You. Give me back that burning desire I once had to write with passion...from the depths of my soul. Fill up that hole inside of me that just seems to be getting bigger and bigger.
So, I'm writing this now because of one of the things He said to me...
Be more transparent in your writing like you use to be. If you feel it...write it! If your struggling...write it.
Everyone struggles at times. Everyone fails at times. It's not always easy to share those thimes...but it is a good thing to do. You see, if you share, it may help people that are reading because they are struggling also. And, it helps you because people pray for you. Not only that...it begins a healing process. A form of therapy if you will. So...
again I am excited to see what the Lord has planned. I know I don't like stumblin' around. I don't like my past coming back because that part of my life is just that...past! I want to pursue God on a deeper level. I don't want to celebrate in my failure, I want to celebrate in my success with Him.
Don't let your past become your present. Reclaim the adventure.
Learning and growing until we see Jesus Face to face.
Search me O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
Create in me a clean heart, O God,
And renew a stedfast spirit within me.
Take delight in the Lord,
and He will give you your heart's desires.