Last night I slept about two hours. It was a very long short night. I believe that God was just trying to get my attention and since I wouldn't give it to Him any other way He kept me awake. The problem is...I'm stubborn. Even when sleep won't come I don't give up easily. I continued to replay way to many events of my life...past and present...over and over in my head until I just couldn't think about them anymore. Then I slept for about two hours before I had to go to work.
Then something happened today that I am just now making sense of. Someone I don't know very well started talking to me about church. They know where I go because they have been there a couple of times. They also attend the Mormon services. Actually they go there more often then anywhere else. In our conversation what they kept repeating to me was..."I am searching for the truth." We would say a couple of things and again they would say..."I am searching for the truth." What I kept repeating to them was that the truth wasn't in the book of Mormon. It was written by Joseph Smith and he was not the truth. The truth could only be found by reading the Bible. The Bible held the only real truth. Work is really not a good place to have these conversations. You have to be careful what you say. I realize now, that conversation wasn't just for her...the Lord was speaking to me as well.
When things go wrong in my life I tend to start pulling away from everything I know to be good. All the things that would help me I do less and less. You guessed it...Bible reading is one of those things. But...from the time I got up this morning the Lord was speaking to me through different things. I looked at a blog...My daily walk in His grace! Tracy is a great writer and her blogs speak to me often. In this one she talks about Proverbs 14:14...how we are content when close to God but discontent when you slide away from God and His word. She then asks, "Have you spent time with the Lord in His word?" That spoke volumes to me! NO...I have been neglecting that and I know what happens when I do. The slippery slide down begins for me!! Then a little later I picked up my Bible and turned to Ephesians 4 and read verses 17-24...New Living Translation...
Living as Children of Light
17 With the Lord’s authority I say this: Live no longer as the Gentiles do, for they are hopelessly confused. 18 Their minds are full of darkness; they wander far from the life God gives because they have closed their minds and hardened their hearts against him. 19 They have no sense of shame. They live for lustful pleasure and eagerly practice every kind of impurity.
20 But that isn’t what you learned about Christ. 21 Since you have heard about Jesus and have learned the truth that comes from him, 22 throw off your old sinful nature and your former way of life, which is corrupted by lust and deception. 23 Instead, let the Spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes. 24 Put on your new nature, created to be like God—truly righteous and holy.
Verses 20-24 really hit me. Notice in verse 21 it says...the truth that comes from Him. There is that word again! Then I thought of this scripture...
6 Jesus told him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one can come to the Father except through me.
New Living Translation (NLT)
I need to remember that Jesus is the truth in my life. The only truth I can count on. Because of Him I have life...without Him I may not even be sitting here tonight. All day He was speaking to me telling me that He is the Truth...the Only Truth! I am so thankful that He cares enough for me to keep speaking until I hear!
Here is one last verse that I read tonight that I would like to share with you.
New Living Translation (NLT)
8 My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.”
And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.”
I want to always be sensitive enough to know when the Lord wants to talk with me!