His Everlasting Love

Another powerful church service tonight. It is so amazing to be in the presence of God! When His presence washes over you there really is nothing like it! Last night I so wanted to write about this but I just couldn't fit it all in. That really is a good thing because a conversation I had with a friend tonight fits right in. So here we go....

I have always had a problem believing that God could really care about me. That was the main reason I never asked the Lord into my heart earlier in my life. I believed that God didn't want anything to do with me...that He had told satan that he could have me. Consequently...satan uses that against me quite often. When things start going downhill for me this is the first kind of thing he whispers in my ear...

"You know that God never really wanted you and look at you now, you've failed Him again! Why don't you just give up? You wonder why you don't feel God's presence with you and this is why. Nothing has really ever changed. You have just been believing what other people want you to believe...that God loves you and has saved you from going to hell! You know God loves them...you can see it in their faces. You can feel love from them...but you don't really feel love from God. You will still be left behind when Jesus comes back! Just think about that for a minute. If God really loved you surely He would let you know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that you will be going with all the people you care about up to Heaven. But I'm telling you...you will be left here to face all of the things that are written in the Bible. Then you will go to Hell with me...to "die" forever!!

My problem is...I sometimes start having doubt. Doubt that I really am a Christian. I'm ashamed to tell you this but yes...I start believing satans lies. Eventually I get my brain back and realize that I have been going down that same road again! Thankfully...I don't listen as much as I used to and when I do...I don't stay in that trap very long anymore. I have learned to recognize that it is the master liar of the universe doing the whispering!

So...last night after the word from God, and accepting and receiving my healing, we had an amazing service. Then at the end of the service the speaker asked for people to come up front to pray. I've been trying to remember what the alter call was for but I can't. I just knew, beyond knowing, that I had to go up and pray. The Holy Spirit came on me so heavily that I could hardly stand. It was amazing. I could feel Him so much...it was so real! He was so real! Don't ever let anyone tell you that the Holy Spirit is not real...He is! I know some of you reading this will think what I am saying is crazy but if you know me at all you know I could never make this up. I am not a very feeling person...but I felt HIM! I don't know how it happens for other people but for me my hands and arms start shaking and it's like a blanket is just sort of dropped on me. A blanket of nothing but feelings and I can't stop it...I don't want to stop it...and I have no idea how long I am there. The whole point of me telling you this is...

God touched me last night...and I knew it. He was telling me this..."I love you and I care about you! Even though you don't always feel me like a lot of people do...I'm still here with you. I have always loved you and always will. I have showed you tonight that I love you. If I will do this for you...why would I leave you here when I come back. You are my child...don't worry."

Today I thought about this a lot. I know He loves me and I am His child. If I wasn't why would He go to all the trouble of healing me and letting me feel His presence so strongly? He wouldn't!

Tonight I want to say to you...

God loves you. Jesus loves you. If God didn't love you He wouldn't have sent His Son to die for you. If Jesus didn't love you He wouldn't have came to earth and died on the cross.

You know...we think that we have it all figured out. Why we're here...what to do with our lives. But until we meet the Savior...turn our lives over to Him...we really don't have a clue. I have come to know, just recently, that the way to get it all figured out is to...Let GOD be GOD in your life. Let Him takeover and lead you into what He wants you to do. It's not an easy thing. Tonight I failed at doing that. The good thing is...tomorrow is on the way. Every morning you get a new 24 to try to do it right!

I am looking forward to the service tomorrow night. Praying for miracles to happen! People to find Jesus as their Savior...people to be healed...and others just having the Holy Spirit come down and touch them in what ever way they need.

Jeremiah 31:3

³ Long ago the Lord said to Israel:
“I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love.
    With unfailing love I have drawn you to myself.

And He is still saying this today to all that will listen and except His love.

Letting Go Of Self

John 3:30


He must become greater and greater, and I must become less and less.
 
The way I always think of this verse is...More of HIM and less of me. I have used this verse many times in my posts and lately I just can't get away from it. Just this morning before church I visited a blog and this was the verse she used. Again in church this morning the speaker used this verse. Coincidence...probably not. I know that God has been talking to me about this in a few areas of my life. Sometimes we just have to get out of the way and let GOD do what GOD wants to do! That's hard...something I am really struggling with today. So many things can come into your thoughts...distractions...that keep you from letting GOD be GOD in your life. The main distraction for GOD things in my life is fear...mostly of the unknown. You might know all about something...head knowledge...but you don't know it for yourself. For me that brings on fear. For most things of GOD I am good. But sometimes there is just one thing...the same thing...that stops me. Why?...I ask myself. The same answer all the time...I don't know. Maybe...it's just fear of letting go of self.

Please Pray

I just talked with Marge and got an update on Wayne.

Wayne had six weeks off from chemo to let his body rest and they were able to get away for a family vacation last week. They had a good time and were able to get some much needed time away for rest and fun.  They got back and immediately he had to have his next infusion...Monday July 31. So, this week has been rough on him. He is feeling discouraged because he just doesn't feel good. Wayne even said,  "this just isn't living". He's tired...achey...and generally just doesn't feel well. I don't know all the symptoms but I do know they aren't good. He really just needs a miracle. I know...and you know...that God is more than able. HE doesn't like for any of HIS children to be sick or suffer in any way. When you think about Wayne if you could please just say a prayer for him and Marge. They are two of the most wonderful people you could ever know and most of all...they both love the LORD with all their hearts. They have told me many times how much they appreciate all the prayers from all of you.

I think of the song by Don Moen...

I Am The God That Healeth Thee

I am the God that
Healeth thee
I am the Lord
Your healer
I sent My word
And I healed your disease
I am the Lord
Your healer

You are the God that
Healeth me
You are the Lord
My healer
You sent Your word
And You healed my disease
You are the Lord
My healer
You sent Your word
And You healed
My disease
You are the Lord
My healer
You sent Your word
And You healed
My disease
You are the Lord
My healer

I am putting their picture on here so you can see who you are praying for. Thank you all again and God bless you for all your prayers.