Flatlining

Today I am so thankful for Gods grace, His understanding, and His love! I am truly blessed.

Last Sunday I stepped back from blogging for a while. I really didn't have any idea when I would start again. In fact, I wasn't even sure if I would. It was so hard for me to do that but at the same time I knew it was the right thing. The last few posts I had written were flat. To me they didn't have any inspiration behind them because I had lost mine. The words just weren't coming anymore and the feeling was gone. For me, the feeling being gone is a scary thing. Emotion and feelings have never come easy and once I started having them, just to think I might be without them in my life again, was hard! After I had posted that I needed to regroup I was so sad. When I went to bed I heard God talk to me for the first time in a while. What He said made me think about a lot of things. His words to me were...You are flatlining! The picture that was immediately before me was...a hospital room and a bed. I couldn't see who was in it but they were hooked up to the machine that shows your heartbeat. I could see the line going up and down. It became less and less until...it flatlined! I was thinking it was me lying there. I wasn't physically dying but spiritually...I was there. I know that sounds dramatic but that's what happened. I believe God let me hear from Him and see that in my minds eye to wake me up! You would have thought that I would have hit the floor on my knees...but I didn't. Literally, I just felt dead inside. I had no idea what I was going to do or how it would turn out. I just knew that something had to change in me. I picked up my bible and opened it and thought...what will I read. I said...God help me to read what ever it is I need to hear right now. Well, I don't read in the Old Testament a lot but my fingers just went to Joshua. This is what I read...

JOSHUA 1:8-9 (NLT)

⁸ Study this Book of Instruction continually. Meditate on it day and night so you will be sure to obey everything written in it. Only then will you prosper and succeed in all you do. ⁹ This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

At that point my thoughts were how amazing God is. I knew that He knew I was struggling but...my old mind set had come back. I didn't think He really cared.

He does. I know that now more than I did before. Throughout this week many things have happened. Good things. God has been working in my heart and doing more healing in me. In the coming days I will share some of the events of this week as the Lord leads me to. I know that many of you in my blog world have prayed for me and I appreciate it. You are all blessings in my life and I am thankful for each of you!

Regrouping

Do you ever find yourself unsure about things? Maybe your job...where you live...things you do...just stuff in general??? Well that's kind of where I'm at right now. So today I've decided that after this post I'm going to take a few days away from blogging. That is writing mine...I will still be keeping up with all of yours. I'm not sure how long but I'm thinking a week or two. It's time to regroup my thinking so when I write it's coming from Him! Time to get back to the basics.

Find It In His Word

Sometimes life just seems to get to be too much. When that happens I always tend to go back to the same verses.

Psalm 46:10a

Be still, and know that I am God;

John 3:30

He must become greater and greater, and I must become less and less.

Psalm 119:105

Your word is a lamp to guide my feet
      and a light for my path.

Psalm 23

¹ The Lord is my shepherd;
      I have all that I need.
 ² He lets me rest in green meadows;
      he leads me beside peaceful streams.
    ³ He renews my strength.
   He guides me along right paths,
      bringing honor to his name.
 ⁴ Even when I walk
      through the darkest valley
   I will not be afraid,
      for you are close beside me.
   Your rod and your staff
      protect and comfort me.
 ⁵ You prepare a feast for me
      in the presence of my enemies.
   You honor me by anointing my head with oil.
      My cup overflows with blessings.
 ⁶ Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me
      all the days of my life,
   and I will live in the house of the Lord
      forever.

I just always tell myself to just be still and remember that God is in control of every situation in my life. He is God and I am not. God needs to be at the fore front of my thoughts. His ways are better than mine. I need to rely on Him and not on my own self. He will guide me and I just need to follow the path He has for me. Don't get distracted by what's going on. Regardless of the situation He will give me rest and peace if I will let Him. Even when I think the situation can't get any worse He's there before me taking care of it. I just need to talk to Him about it and let it go. Rest in His arms and let His love flow over me.

These are some of the verses that get me where I need to be when things go crazy in my life. The first two remind me of what I need to do. The third one reminds me that He is there lighting my way. The 23rd Psalm reminds me that He is all I need and that He is always right beside me, taking care of me and loving me.

I don't know what kind of encouragement you need today but whatever it is you can find all you need in His Word.

Linking up today with Tracy for...Winsome Wednesday.